Fcuked up life .

I mean it .
Feeling so down out of the blue .
Friends? Life?
God why am I stuck in this shithole of endless problems .
People constantly saying they'll be there for you whenever they're down .
Are these words really meant to be?
Or are they merely words meant to console you .
Sometimes I really wonder,
Do I have true friends?
Or even friends?
Who can I run to when Im down?
Who can I turn to when Im feeling weak?
Tell me the answer guys .
I feel so empty, so lonely deep down .
Sure I can turn to my parents,
With my mom & her random moodswings, fretting over her own problems .
Or my dad? Who's saddled up with his never ending pile of work,
Constantly shuttling between his businesses in China & Spore .
What do you think?
My close friends? The ones whom are always with me?
I guess none of them do understand the problems Im going through .
Everyone needs a someone to be there sometimes .
However strong a person will fall one day .
As for me, having to go through all these problems Im facing,
& Continue to plaster on a smile every day is such a tough chore for me .
Facing everything alone, this is a one man show .
Forget it people, I have to get back on my feet soon enough I guess .
That's just the way it is .
The world doesnt move slow enough for me to keep up with it .
I do have to get back to reality someday afterall .


Thoroughly disappointed with you .
Thought that you would be the one to shoulder it with me,
Yet what I received was disappointment .
Whenever you're feeling unhappy,
I would always try my best to cheer you up & talk things with you .
I would explain everything to you, make you see the brighter side of life .
However when it comes to me,
You merely brushed off my problems,
As though it were a speck of dust by saying It aint a big deal .
To me, it really is a big deal .
Perhaps only YOUR problems would seem a big deal to you, & mine doesnt matter .
But that's just not the way things work .
I wonder how much I really mean to you despite you always telling me how much I do .
I dare say you do mean the world to me,
I try to give you my best in everything but what I receve from you is not the same .
You have no idea how much hurt you inflicted on me .
Like what I said, do I really deserve to be treated this way?
I should think not .
Selflessly giving up everything for you, I do it willingly .
Yet just to play a small part on your side is so difficult .
I just cant seem to understand why .
It hurts, it really does .


Gladys : Hi dumbo! Miss you la .
Siman : Yes la . Know you the best la sis .
Anonymous : I'll update when there's stuff for me to . You can add me on msn if you want, beats talking through chatbox yea?
Amicell : Hello! :D
Anonymous : Its T-shirt by Shontelle .

Wednesday

Met Alex over at 682, then went Orchard to meet my bitch .

Went to Fareast cause she wanted to get her Fried Mars Bars .

Did practically nothing there, then Ahyao came .

Ahcute came afterwards .

Me & X left as I had to get back to school for night studies .

Pretty eventless day .

Thursday

I seem to have people fetching me from school every thursday!

Xueling came, & we headed to the airport .

She wanted me to coach her on Maths, which I did .

Buuuuuttttttttt .

It was a waste of my time as she was a total pain in the butt .

Remember what I promised you IF you pass your Maths for N's my dear .

Friday

Went to the airport , like AGAIN .

This time it was to meet my Amicell & Siman .

I have unspoken affinity with the airport I know .

They tried to study while I succeeded in distracting them :D

Went to compass at night .

Nostalgic feeling being there when I've not done so for quite some time .

Home at night .

Anonymous : Oh, its a fact I guess? Glad you agree(:

Xueling : Lol . You're being stupid, like always .

Huihui : Miss you too .

Siman : Okay, Im so not happy to see your tag . LOL . Love you sis .

Queenie : Im fine . You?

Met this bitch at Marina yesterday .

Watched Mamma Mia .

Pretty nice show .

People singing practically every moment of the show .

Chilled over at the Esplanade next then back to Sengkang .

Went to MOS Burger for a little while .

Ages since I met up with the usuals .

Headed to the 7-11 near my school to meet Zhaorong .

Waited for him for like 1 & 1/2 hrs .

!#^%!*&^#%#^%!*&^#% { Insert spam }

Accompanied him walk home while me & that bitch took a bus from the busstop there .

Seems like a million miles away .

Irritating :x

Stephanie : Yes this stupid niece of mine .

Xueling : Ew you are actually very disgusting you know? Pleasedigyourarse&smellitkthanks .

Anonymous : Since I dont know who you are, I guess there aint any point in apologizing eh? You're forgiven nevertheless (:

Sam : Stupid brother .

Xueling : Stop your Ah-Goh-Goh nonsense already will you . First Gladsy & now this . You are sickening .

Gladys : Lol . I dont know who's that person, do you?

Anonymous : Yes indeed its me .

Hi .
Its 5.52 am now yet Im not asleep .
I promise I'll go to bed after this update .
Wokeup kinda late, went out at night .
Went to Hougang area to look for Zhaorong Junjie & co .
They were playing table tennis .
Kinda funny with their silly actions .
Brought Chocolate along with me too .
Police came & they got screened .
Alex called, so went to meet him at 684 .
Was supposed to meet Hui but she went off before I arrived .
Nothing much, chilled over at mac .
Alex accompanied me to walk home then cabbed home himself .
It was a vvvvvv long distance yet he did not complain .
Sucha sweetie (:
I appreciate it really .
Okay, time for me to hit the sack .
Bye people .

Stephy came to my house to meet me yesterday .

Rushed down to vivo like mad just to be in time for the movie .

Caught $ No Enough 2 .

Pretty late for me to watch it I know .

Watched tons of new movies yet not this?

I must be crazy .

Xueling came to meet us after that .

All the way at there .

Me & Steph went back to Hougang while Xueling went home .

Went to Sengkang to meet Zhaorong thn Junjie came .

Stephy stayed over at my house .

Nothing much .

Bye .

You're dumb .

You make me angry & disappointed .

Your attitude sucks at times .

You make me wanna kill you .

BUT

Your dumbness makes me smile silently .

You make me disappointed with your own reasons .

Your attitude is just like mine .

I wanna kill you cause I cant stand someone like me .

Yet regardless of what you do,

You never fail to make me smile (:

I like you just the way you are, regardless of what people say .

Received a call from Baobei in the middle of class .

Makes me miss so many people all of a sudden .

Especially those whom I've not met for a very long time .

Someone came to pick me up from school today!

Headed to compass, saw Andrew & friend at first .

Chilled at alley & I saw Marrcus!

So very very long since I saw him at compass .

Smiles*

Nth much, went to meet Alex after that .

HOME .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALOYSIUS LIM!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY GLADYS CHENG XINYI!

Hi anonymous .

Thanks for dropping by .

Dont bother spamming me, cause malicious talk aint what I desire .

I'll simply delete those childish nonsense of yours(:

Esther : Meet up soooooonnnnnn!

Jiaxin : (:

Viona : I miss you too .

Aimei : See you around hopefully .

Angeline : Hi TEO BA ZHANG .

Passer-by : There you go . I guess you've got your answer?

Xueling : Love you la!

Samantha : Hi daughter .

Elaine : I'll link you soon .

Anonymous : You are?

Saturday

Met up with my Xueting .

Havent seen her since god knows when .

We both brought our dogs out that night .

Met at plaza, wanted to pool but there were the two monsters in our way .

Walked to green, saw people here & there .

Met up with Angeline for a little while & Alex came to look for me (:

Chilled around Green but my dog was being sucha big nuisance .

Charles went off & the 3 of us went to look for Ahcute .

Imagine taking a cab from green to ave8, which is just a stone's throw away .

Whatever .

Walked home around 3 something .

Sunday

Went to East coast park like againnnnnnnn .

Played candles under some block together with Xueling .

Boyster came to look for us .

Nothing interesting though .

Pretty blah day .

Toodles .

Thursday
Cabbed to Peihwa early in the morning to fetch a dumbass .
{ Be grateful my dear }
Headed to Vivo .
Watched The Days .
First day screening & we managed to watch it .
Pretty alright show but the ending kinda sucked .
On the whole its really funny if you understand hokkien .
So do watch it yea .
Walked around, & then back to Hougang to meet Xianfu .
Plaza after that & finally home .
Kinda blah day, but oh well?
Friday
A sudden urge to go to Parkway Parade , so met X there .
We didnt walk around, went there just to have MOS Burger & went to Eastcoast Park . Somehow lame, but that crazy bitch insisted on it .
Really happy when we got to Eastcoast!
The feeling of sand squishing my toes & the gentle sea breeze .
Oh wow .
Havent had this feeling for ages .
Gladys is a really really reallyyyyyyy happy girl (:
Literally walked the entire Eastcoast .
Back to Bedok but some unhappy things happened .
My dear girl's mood went low low low . H
eaded to Eastcoast yet again, hoping the place would calm her down .
Same place in same day, yet totally opposite feelings .
Weibin & friend came after that .
Tonned all the way till morning .

The last picture is a total blur cause it was zooooooomeeeeed all the way .

Sentosa today!

Totally last minute I swear .

Came home with tons of insect bites .

Gees .

Sentosa's always beautiful even though I havent been there for ages .

Looking forward to going there again like real soon I hope!

Damn Im tired .
BYE .

Cccchhhhhanges .

The picture on the right was taken in 2006 I think?

Was browsing through past photos & came across this one .

How time flies .

In a blink of an eye, it seems as though it was yesterday that I met you .

Look at how much we've both changed!

God its unbelievable .

I look as if I've undergone surgery! Ohmy .

All in all, what I wanna say is that ,

Im really glad to have you in my life my dear (:

Dont be too shocked to see your pic up here .

& You'd better not ask me to remove it :D

Anywayyyyyyyyyyys .

Did literally nothing in school today from 7am-12pm

My paper was at 12 yet I still had t report at 7 .

Retarded right? I know .

Went in & out of school, walked around everywhere & lazed in the library .

Finally got my paper done & over with .

Im gonna sleep now, cause I didnt sleep at all last night .

Sweetdreams .

Jiaxin : I do , but I didnt see you online , not cause I dont love you(:

Xueling : Hohos .

Amicell : Sure sure .

Friday

Was supposedly meeting Xueling at Bugis .

Thanks to our dear friend Munkie , I waited like a solid 3hrs there for them .

Lucky for me , I saw my dearest Girlfriend on the train .

She was with Xueting & I really do have to thank them for accompanying me .

If not for them , god knows what would have happened to me during the 3hrs?

Thanks girls, you're the sweetest(:

I uploaded our picture already stupid girlfriend .

But too bad you cant steal them {Haw Haw}

I'll send you on msn :D

Those two came like finally after so very long .

Ate at Mos, then went Sim Lim Square as Munkie collected his lappie .

Headed to Taka next to watch the Lion Dance competition .

Bedok after that .

Home in the morning & slept at 8am .

Went to Bedok to look for that bitch today (Saturday)

I saw a horrific ghost there .

Scare the living shit outta me .

It scared Xueling like nuts too, yea?

Saw my Ada there .

She hugged me so tightly I couldnt breathe .

Aww so sweet♥

Nothing much, reached home close to midnight .

Xueting : Hellos(:

Nicole : I keep forgetting . I've linked you anyway .

Selina : Meet up soon .

Sunday`s play was a blast .

Saw many whom I`ve not seen for ages .

Spending the night with Xueling &co was so wonderful .

Boat Quay after party ended .

Went to look for Ahjon at Raining Bar .

Cabbed home in the morning .

Met my Amicell yesterday .

Was together with Alex at his work place .

Off to look for Xianfu for awhile .

Nothing much, kinda boring day .

Rain dampen my mood so much .

But being with that cutie pie kills boredom(:

Love ya Bi♥

Queenie : You too .

Aiqi : Meet up soon(:

Ilona : You were so totally stalking me! See you soonnnnnnn :D

Selina : I keep forgetting to link you . Lols .